Mistress has been teasing me lately about getting me a 'boyfriend'.
*BLUSH*
The following is from my slave journal written after one particularly tortuous night of being teased & denied, kept on the edge of orgasm while she humiliated me with my own fantasies and burning ache to submit and be used..
I love the thought of it not being up to me at all. Having pictures taken, then put up online for you to write a profile for and go over all applicants—who know they are communicating with you, not me. Teased and humiliated and made to feel like a piece of meat, a fucktoy. I can just see the evil delight in you as you write the flirty profile, and go through the responses while I kneel helplessly at your feet.
Then the terror/humiliation if you actually *pick* someone. What if you don’t tell me anything about them at all? What if it’s a total surprise? It could be anyone…maybe even that dom gay male couple on collarme I see from time to time, or a dom cd, or some lecherous tranny chaser…
All I’m told is that I am to obey them, and I am to respond not only like a girl, but enthusiastically!
And then I’m totally feminized from head to toe, wig, makeup, some slutty outfit, and taken out…no choice in the matter, feeling very much like some sort of virgin sacrifice. I could be being taken to a gay bar, where I will have to have a few drinks and be ‘wooed'. I could be taken to some private home where I’ll be put in chains and fucked.
It could be anything…but all I can do is obey you, and whoever he or she is by extension.
I can see you there with me. Cropping me if I’m not enthusiastic enough. Ordering me to respond this way or that way—like spreading my legs back to be touched, or to use my tongue for a kiss.
And even more squirmy than this hot imagined scene? The idea that it might not be an isolated incident. That I might have to do my makeup and prepare myself for this person myself in the future.
That total surrender…ohhhhh….
tiapet,
ReplyDeleteI have teased my sissy about this possibility as well before. Have you had any experiences with guys before or would this be your first ever? Personally, if I do decide that my sissy should have the experience of pleasuring a man I think it would make sense for me to make the decisions on who it would be.
And I would certainly not want her seeing a regular "boyfriend" unless I thought it would fit well into our relationship.
Mistress Aimee
Ms Aimee,
ReplyDeleteI've had a few experiences by now...*blush*
I've even served as a sort of 'party favor' at a couple of Mistress's naughtier parties!
And...every so often she has me please her husband...*blushes more*
But..while I have had 'forced bi sex' on more than one occasion, the way its been done has always been more...more like a side dish, and not the main course, to grasp at some sort of metaphor that works..*giggle*
The difference between sex and 'making love', really. 'Making love' as a sissy is something I've never really done, or been made to do.
The thought...intrigues and excites me...because this kind of play really makes me feel so *owned* by my Mistress.
The deeper into forced feminization I go, the more wanted & desired I feel, the more owned I feel. And this kind of forced bi play only adds to that, and makes it so...irresistible..