How Lucky I Am

I was reading a sissy's blog today, wherein she details her 'final assignment' from her mistress, who, due to other commitments, no longer had the time to devote to this sissy's online training. Online only--according to the sissy, they had never met in person. This made me feel sad for both of them--the sissy and the domme. The sissy for losing a mistress; the domme for being forced by necessity to move on. I'm not sure many male subs out there appreciate the value of a mistress's time, especially if its an online-only relationship.

It kind of makes me appreciate even more (not that I've ever doubted) how lucky I am to have found/been found by my Mistress. To serve her in real life, to belong to her body and soul.

I can't imagine what its like to be online only...to never meet at all? :( Way back when I was hanging out in BDSM chat rooms and meeting dommes from across the country, we would play online yes, but online was only a means to an end--to get to know someone before travelling out to see them.

I spent a few years doing this, searching for 'The One'. Chat rooms, personal ads, getting hopes up, having them dashed. Heartaches and heartbreaks. But some rewarding experiences as well, good friends, good times, hot scenes.

Eventually I gave up...it was taking too much of a toll on me and I had landed a job that meant my travelling days were pretty much over. Spent a good portion of a decade vanilla and kind of dead inside, a few frustrating kinky one-night stands that never went much of anywhere.
Decided I wasn't going anywhere in my job and I'd had enough of cold PA winters and moved to sunny FL.

And it was here that I met 'The One'. Like a gift from the universe, totally unexpected. I had just started looking at bdsm personal ads again, shaking off the dust and cobwebs of my kinky life, and She found me. How totally by chance...how many things had to happen to bring me to Her, to put me on my knees at Her feet. I'm very aware of how lucky I am, believe me.

Sometimes it just takes my breath away.