Introducing myself

I thought I might try my first stab at a post here. :)

My fem name is tia, and I am the owned slave of Mistress Erisiana Cherie.

She is my Mistress, she is my Goddess. She has entered my life, turned it upside down, and wrapped it so completely and so lovingly around her finger that I want nothing more to spend the rest of my life on my knees at her feet.

My life now I can best describe as a "Reality-Based 24/7". I do not spend every waking hour feminized and in chains, for example.

Not that I wouldn't want to: but reality demands I go to my blue-collar job every day, thinking constantly about the panties I'm wearing underneath, trying to move the clock forward by sheer act of willpower so I can go home quicker and get back to where I belong, serving my Mistress.

We also do not live together..she has her own home, with husband (who I am also subservient to) and children a few miles away from me. Instead, I live in her professional dungeon, which takes up a good portion of my modest one-story house. So while it is not the fantasy-based 24/7 so prevalent in femdom fiction and pornography, I am  at her beck and call and minutes away from her at every given time.

I hope with all of my submissive heart that, in time, her professional ambitions and our website plans together bear enough fruit that it becomes practical to serve her full-time. We'll see.  Maybe users like you can help!

I live under a set of rules and protocols that evolve as my enslavement to her evolves. I'll share a few, in no particular order.

Panties every day. I always must have something soft and silky and feminine on underneath.

My body is kept as smooth as possible....sometimes, when my work schedule has me up at 4 am and I'm coming home in the evening exhausted, its hard to keep up this regimen. Thankfully Mistress understands this and doesn't hold it against me. I hope someday to have laser hair removal, so I can always be smooth for her when it becomes doable.

My toenails are always painted...at the moment they are bright pink.. *blush* Going to the beach is a highly embarrassing and nerve-wracking experience. :P

My eyebrows are routinely plucked and shaped...luckily its subtle: I don't think anyone at work has noticed. (I hope!)

I am undergoing anal plug training, to better prepare myself to be used by her and her husband should she desire.

I always wear a silver necklace and pendant as my 'daytime' collar and reminder of my enslavement to her.

At night, I sleep naked, wearing nothing but my red leather training collar.

Its a different life, needless to say. And I have never been happier or more at peace in my entire life.

*bigbrightblush* Mistress's plans have developed in our time together to include photos and movies and cam shows of us together. This, quite frankly, terrifies me and makes me want to curl up somewhere in embarrassment!

But I'd also be lying if I didn't admit that the idea didn't excite me as well....

Neither of us are models, we are real people. Mistress is a BBW, and I am a large broad-shouldered guy, 6'3", 260 lbs or so. Not passable by any stretch of the imagination, sadly. I'd have sold my soul ages ago to be one of those small, slender, willowy androgynous men for whom transforming into a beautiful woman was easy.

But as I said, this isn't a web fantasy.

This is reality, and its turning out (to my amazement) to be pretty sweet after all.

I cannot wait to see what the future...what my journey under the direction and the dominance of this Mistress who I love and worship will bring.

--tiapet, sissy slave of Mistress Erisiana Cherie


PS. Amazingly enough...I met Mistress on Alt Com.  Yes, I wouldn't have believed it myself!  For years I was an infrequent user...finding so many disappointments, fakers, timewasters.  But there are real people on there!  Like precious diamonds in a mountain of rock, it takes time and patience to find one. 

So yes, I recommend signing up to those of you looking, endlessly looking maybe (as I did) for that special Mistress or Master.  Just don't hold your breath, strap-on some hip-waders to wade through the bull, *AND* don't use Alt Com as your only avenue to search.  There are other networks to try.  But, yes, alt com should be part of your search for 'the One'!

When I think of all of the things that had to happen by pure chance for me to meet my Mistress...how easily things might have turned out the other way...

When I made the decision to move to Florida from across the country...I had no specific location in mind: I had no job waiting for me here, no friends or family. Just a desire to live someplace by a beach somewhere.  St Petersburg/Tampa Bay was chosen more or less by chance.  I could have ended up anywhere else and not have met Mistress!  :(

And also by chance...my decision, made in fall of 2008 to start looking for BDSM partners again after years of resigning myself into thinking that this was all some silly dream: that the toll on my mental/emotional state was just too much to keep getting my hopes up, only to see them crash to the ground, time and time again.  This decision led me to re-activate my dormant account on alt.

And also by chance...if Mistress hadn't have written me...and that's the most amazing thing of all: it wasn't me who wrote first, making first contact.  Mistress saw something in my profile that she liked, and sent a friendly message.

All these things by chance had to happen...if they hadn't...I don't want to think about it. :(

Mistress, you are a miracle to me. I love and worship you more than words can say.